There’s a quote in one of Joni’s song that somehow feels so familiar, a subject of contemplation.

All the guilty people he said,

They all see the stains,

On their daily bread, on their christian name…

Familiar because it pretty much sums me up.

I see stains everywhere I go, the negativity around a place is the first thing that may catch my attention.

So, the question came into my mind, am I guilty? Is the problem actually within here?

But I know that I see all the stains because the knowledge I have. Is the knowledge the sin itself?

To think deeper makes me come to a conclusion, it is not the stain-seeing that makes me guilt, it’s actually the way those stains influence me, the way I react. Usually they make me sad, annoyed, affected by all the negativity, thus becoming the stain itself.

So, now what I hope to see in myself is the grace to clean the stains, or the ignorance to live with them.

Yeah, grace and ignorance, dualism, as usual.